The Wall is Down

I knew this was happening, but it still shocked me.

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I have no wall in my living room. Just a big hole open to the outside world. I guess this is one way of bringing the outside in…

This is one of the nice, optional things we thought we might as well do whilst we’re having to have a rewire anyway. It is also completely practical when you have a small child. The actual doing of the work is completely impractical in every way (here’s a tip for you, if you want to buy a 1930’s house, buy it and complete all the work before having children), but the end result will mean a much safer family home all round.

Our house was built in 1936, and the layout must have remained unchanged for many years, but at some point after 1970 the owner at the time built a garage and utility room extension. This was incredibly useful for housing things like a washing machine, dryer and freezer that wouldn’t fit in the tiny, 1930’s kitchen. However, it meant that the only access to the garden was via the garage, which isn’t particularly safe if you have young children. There are plenty of things within that garage that I don’t want small children anywhere near.

So we fixed it by putting a bloody great hole in the wall. Now we have garden access.

But oh the shock.

I can kind of see how this is going to work out, it is going to look nice. But this is the first big job of the renovation and it is a little bit scary.

 

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Walk all over Cancer: Day 1

Step Count: 2467

Pippin’s Steps Count: 1

Total: 2468

Deficit: 7532

Surplus: 0

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Ok. Clearly today went absolutely terribly, for two reasons.

1. I have lost my fitbit, which is devastating. It is somewhere either at our house or in one of the boxes we’ve moved to my in laws, but where it is I can’t be certain. I’m reliant on my phone and it isn’t the best. So, I actually did a walk into Beaumaris too, but it didn’t count that.

2. We went on what should have been a lovely long walk to South Stacks Lighthouse in Anglesey. It was so windy that I didn’t feel I could walk parts of it as I was baby wearing.

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Tomorrow will have to be a new day, and of course that makes my new goal 17,532 steps for tomorrow – so I will have to do plenty of walking.

Today it is June

So, a while back I signed up to do something different in June.

This June I am going to walk 10,000 steps a day, and hopefully raise £40 for Cancer Research UK by doing so.

Which is funny, because I currently average about 1000 steps a day, so I really, really need to get moving.

I don’t know anyone whose life hasn’t been touched by cancer, whether they have lost someone, had someone beat cancer, know someone with cancer or had cancer themselves.

We are lucky enough that we know many cancer survivors, people who beat Breast Cancer, Bowel Cancer and Skin Cancer. Sadly we know more people who lost their fight, and cancer took my husband’s nana earlier this year.

I’m doing this for all of them, I want more people to have treatment and survive cancer.

So, this is me. Dragging my dodgy post-partum hips on 10,000 steps a day, and if you fancy donating then that would be wonderful.

https://fundraise.cancerresearchuk.org/page/rebeccagina

And now for something completely different…

I’ve been absent for a little bit, I haven’t really known what to say. I live close to Manchester, and like everyone else I reeled in shock after the events of the 22nd May and then we watched as Manchester banded together and held each other.

We saw parts of our town blocked off as arrests were made and the police and emergency services did their job.

I didn’t want to ignore the events, and just not mention them, they’re too close to my heart for that. But I don’t want to capitalise on them either. This isn’t for likes. My heart truly goes out to all those affected by what happened, and our thoughts are very much with them.

 

 

Moving Day: Our Lives in Boxes

I’ve been sat in amongst the boxes of our life in this house for about an hour now. We’re moving out today so we can get some essential work done. It is work that means we can live safely in our house for as long as we choose to stay here, and although we’re only going to be away for a few months I still feel a little, bereft?

My husband and I moved quite regularly before we bought this house three years ago. We first moved in together in 2011, and moved five times in following years. Every move is tinged with a bit of sadness, because you’ve had a life in that house – not matter how short a time you lived there.

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This time I feel sad that some of Pippin’s milestones might happen whilst we’re not living in our family home. I feel sad that some of our most treasured belongings are going to be in the loft, wrapped in bubble wrap.

I also feel sad because we’ve moved five times before, and I know just how long unpacking takes.

I will miss our house whilst we’re gone, but realistically I know that we couldn’t have stayed here much longer without making these changes. And I know that it is infinitely better to do it now, whilst Pippin is very young and it won’t affect her too much, than when she is older and more conscious of the change.

So today we will leave our home, and know that when we come back it is going to look very different. But it will also be a family home that we can stay in for as long as we need to, and that is very exciting.

8 and a bit months in – 8 and a bit months out: and my (abridged) Birth story

SONY DSCPippin never actually spent the full nine months inside, but for comparison reasons, here’s my big girl at 37 weeks old with a picture of my giant bump at 37 weeks pregnant:

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Obviously, I never made it to the full 40 weeks. As I had Gestational Diabetes I was having growth scans every couple of weeks, and at 34 weeks the Dr’s felt Pippin had had a bit of a growth spurt. They felt that if the growth spurt had continued at my 36-week scan it would be best if they scheduled an elective section for 39 weeks.

Gestational Diabetes is Diabetes that develops during pregnancy. It is usually diagnosed during a screening between 24 and 28 weeks, called an Oral Glucose Tolerance Test (OGTT). Basically, they take a blood sample, make you drink and sugary drink before waiting and taking another sample. Usually, you’ll only have this screening if you’re having symptoms or considered to be in a high-risk group for developing Gestational Diabetes. I was high-risk, because of my weight and because I have a family history of Type 2 Diabetes.

I managed the Diabetes through my pregnancy just by diet, and I had to take my blood sugar levels either before or after meals, dependant on the day. I carried around my little kit and book and couldn’t indulge in all the sugary snacks I really wanted to. C’est la vie.

Theoretically managing your blood sugar levels well should help reduce complications, but there are increased risks such as macrosomia (a large baby, which can lead to birth complications), perinatal death and neonatal glycemia (baby having low blood sugar).

What developing Gestational Diabetes had meant for me was that they were unwilling to let me go ahead with a home birth, as Pippin would have to be monitored after the birth to check that the blood sugar levels were normal.

So, at the 36-week scan, they decided that Pippin was well on track for an 11lbs birth weight, and there was absolutely no way they were willing to let me go to full term. In the end I was booked in to be induced on the 25th August. They didn’t want to leave it any later in case I went into labour ahead of schedule.

So I went in to be induced on the 25th. This is where I am going to be fairly brief. Frankly, the whole experience was a hell, and not something I have come to terms will yet.

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I had my first pessary at about lunchtime on the 25th,  and I think my waters were broken at about 3 pm on the 26th.

I had more monitors than I care to think about attached to me, and I was pretty much immobile. I managed the pain quite well, at first, by just breathing. I then had gas and air and then diamorphine.

After fourteen hours they decided that 4cm was probably as dilated as I would get, and I was prepped for a C-section. Pippin came out crying and was an 8lbs13 little girl, which is pretty much what they estimated she would be at that gestation.

Unfortunately, I had quite a bit of blood loss, and we both had infection markers. I got given some antibiotics, and Pippin got taken away to have a cannula fitted for her medication. Then they were still unhappy with her breathing, so they took her away and put her on oxygen and a nasogastric tube. She wasn’t allowed to feed because they were concerned she might aspirate some of her milk.

After three days she was allowed back on the main ward with me, and after a further two, we were allowed to go home. Which was nice.

Although, those first few weeks are a whirl of medication and injections. I was on lots of tablets for pain relief and for infections, and I had one injection a day for six weeks after the birth to stop blood clots.

The birth wasn’t ideal, but we got through it relatively unscathed. But it still feels pretty raw, and I don’t much like talking about it – even eight months on. I know that I’m dealing with some negative emotions around the birth, emotions I will probably have to face at some point. I’m not there yet though, I’m just not ready to relive it. Not right now.

Confession Time

It is probably completely typical of the way things are at the moment, when at 03:53am I have the terrible realisation that some bloke is coming to measure for a new carpet tomorrow, I haven’t done any washing so I have no clean underwear or trousers and, most horrifying, the bloody seat from the Jumperoo is in the washing machine. Where in God’s name am I supposed to put the baby whilst I shove everything in the hall cupboard so the carpet man doesn’t think I am untidy?

I suppose he’s going to so shocked by the fact that I am going to have to greet him with no trousers that he might not actually notice the fact that my house is an utter tip.

I think I had my shit together for about a week, a week where I got my daughter and myself dressed and downstairs before breakfast, we went into the kitchen and I made her food whilst tidying up. That week I even hoovered every day. It was a blissful week were absolutely everything was lovely.

Then my husband started a row of night shifts and it all went to shit.

The only advantage to my significant other doing the night shift is that there’s more room in our double bed. Everything else about it is completely pants. It isn’t just about the fact that he’s not there overnight, that’s probably the easiest part of it. It’s the fact that he’s not there in the morning, afternoon or evenings too.

I love my daughter, that goes without saying, but I love her that little bit more when I can have five minutes to myself. Or manage to wash some clothes. Or even, and this really is the Holy Grail, have a wee in peace.